“I Can’t Hear You!”

“I Can’t Hear You!”

You know the FB videos of toddlers who are deaf and with cochlear implants hear their mother’s voices for the first time? The surprise mixed with joy? Apparently–because Tony was at the appointment and told me–that was my initial reaction when demo hearing aids were first placed in my ears. I know my whole body flinched and my eyes widened with glee. For years and years and years, I have had considerable trouble with muffled sound. Oh, the things I thought I heard. I wish I had written them down. Emily Latella reincarnated.

Can you imagine teaching with this disability? No wonder I was exhausted. People with normal hearing don’t know how much energy it takes to try to put language together through contextual clues. Tony told the audiologist, “I just thought she wasn’t listening.”

Early hearing loss runs on both sides of my family. At annual trips to Toronto to celebrate my great-aunt’s birthday, when my family gathered for dinner, we would be screaming conversation along the long table because the adults couldn’t hear. I knew it was only a matter of time.